A journal and journey of life and recovery from Post Traumatic Stress.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
What is PTSD? This may help to understand.....
I was watching this video on You Tube and I have to say that this is very much my experience with PTSD. I recently I had an situation on Facebook where someone took my confession of PTSD as a joke. He didn't take what I was saying seriously. It hurt me deeply. For one thing it totally reminded me of how my ex-husband would react. For another it is just another example of someone, usually male I am sorry to say, that thinks it's bull and doesn't realize that this affects the sufferers every day life. For those who are unfamiliar with this condition, I am including the video I was watching as it describes my symptoms pretty well and if you are a sufferer or know someone who is, talk to them. This may help you to understand what we go through. This will be the shortest entry in my blog. I feel the doctor says it best, so I have no more to say right now.
The only thing that I can add is to educate others around you. Some people are ignorant about this disorder through no fault of their own and there are others who are ignorant because if they don't see the illness, so to them it doesn't exist. Sad for those of us who suffer this daily and have to deal with those who can't see or understand it and wonder why we don't suck it up or forget about it. We wish we could, truly. We do not like living this way and we would do anything to change it. Some of us are lucky enough to be able to get therapy. It has taken me over a decade to get the proper help as my trauma's are multiple. I only now have insurance to get the help. Thank god.
totally cool video...glad you found it to share and let people know what it is and what it is like...
Have you ever had something really big happen in your life, something you worked really hard for and when you achieved it, those people whom you thought were friends and sometimes even family, did not even care enough to say congrats...no phone call, not one line of anything, that is a very lonely and depressing feeling.
I don't suffer from PTSD, but Manic Depression...some of the symptoms are similar, a product of a life changing event, usually traumatic along with chemical imbalances int he brain as a result... Your great and I love ya girl! T ;)
I hope it helps someone, I truly do. I thought it said a lot in a way that was easy to understand. As for Manic Depression/Bi-Polar, my oldest daughter suffers from that. So did my ex-fiance. Are you taking any medication for it? It has really done wonders for my daughter, she still needs therapy though. Like most illnesses you need a combination of therapy and medication. I hope I'm not one of those people who didn't write! I know I posted on your FB. And yes, I can relate very well to that. It is discouraging. Sometimes it is just because they may be too caught up in their own lives. I have some friends like that. They have no idea what is going on with me at all and when they find out it's like a big surprise. I post a blog for goodness sakes! lol But I understand how it feels and I am so sorry that you are feeling that way. You have made a tremendous accomplishment and I for one am so proud of you. I know it wasn't easy and I know you worked against tremendous odds, NO ONE can take that away from you. I am sorry that some people close to you have disappointed you. You really a sweet person as well as tenacious. What is most important is that YOU feel that sense of pride in yourself. Love you my friend! :-)
I have been without meds for 6 years...since I worked in SL...to much moving, transferring, no consistency in my life...I have moved 8 times in the last 6 years....kinda hard to keep a job or any stability in my life. When I lived in Cambria and was working full time...I was very content and felt actually really happy...then when I moved to finish school, things were fine until I had one teacher tell me my stuff was crap...needless to say that I fell into that dark pit, stopped eating right, stopped any physical exercise, just stopped except for school...I am trying to get back up but that is hard and when you throw menopause into the mix, well, all that does is complicate everything! LOL
That was a major problem that I also had. It seems to me that most Bi-Polar meds are not listened on the cheap meds that you can get at Walmart. Have you been to the county? That is usually the best place to go when you need meds and don't have insurance. It is sad that it only takes one person to mess up all of our growth. I am really sorry that happened to you. It takes every little bit of energy to maintain our self esteem when we are still working on things. The trick is to BELIEVE in ourselves so that when someone says something unfounded that we can brush it off as the person not knowing what they are talking about. That is obviously not to be confused with constructive criticism of course, but when someone is downright mean, it's uncalled for. Not to mention that when it comes to art, it is very subjective. Just like music, some people like one thing and think that what I like sucks...well I just keep liking what I like right? I understand how hard it is to pick yourself up, especially when you have been doing it so many times. It takes a lot of determination and help. And Yes menopause is not helping me either! lol
totally cool video...glad you found it to share and let people know what it is and what it is like...
ReplyDeleteHave you ever had something really big happen in your life, something you worked really hard for and when you achieved it, those people whom you thought were friends and sometimes even family, did not even care enough to say congrats...no phone call, not one line of anything, that is a very lonely and depressing feeling.
I don't suffer from PTSD, but Manic Depression...some of the symptoms are similar, a product of a life changing event, usually traumatic along with chemical imbalances int he brain as a result...
Your great and I love ya girl!
T
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I hope it helps someone, I truly do. I thought it said a lot in a way that was easy to understand. As for Manic Depression/Bi-Polar, my oldest daughter suffers from that. So did my ex-fiance. Are you taking any medication for it? It has really done wonders for my daughter, she still needs therapy though. Like most illnesses you need a combination of therapy and medication.
ReplyDeleteI hope I'm not one of those people who didn't write! I know I posted on your FB. And yes, I can relate very well to that. It is discouraging. Sometimes it is just because they may be too caught up in their own lives. I have some friends like that. They have no idea what is going on with me at all and when they find out it's like a big surprise. I post a blog for goodness sakes! lol But I understand how it feels and I am so sorry that you are feeling that way. You have made a tremendous accomplishment and I for one am so proud of you. I know it wasn't easy and I know you worked against tremendous odds, NO ONE can take that away from you. I am sorry that some people close to you have disappointed you. You really a sweet person as well as tenacious. What is most important is that YOU feel that sense of pride in yourself.
Love you my friend! :-)
I have been without meds for 6 years...since I worked in SL...to much moving, transferring, no consistency in my life...I have moved 8 times in the last 6 years....kinda hard to keep a job or any stability in my life. When I lived in Cambria and was working full time...I was very content and felt actually really happy...then when I moved to finish school, things were fine until I had one teacher tell me my stuff was crap...needless to say that I fell into that dark pit, stopped eating right, stopped any physical exercise, just stopped except for school...I am trying to get back up but that is hard and when you throw menopause into the mix, well, all that does is complicate everything!
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That was a major problem that I also had. It seems to me that most Bi-Polar meds are not listened on the cheap meds that you can get at Walmart. Have you been to the county? That is usually the best place to go when you need meds and don't have insurance. It is sad that it only takes one person to mess up all of our growth. I am really sorry that happened to you. It takes every little bit of energy to maintain our self esteem when we are still working on things. The trick is to BELIEVE in ourselves so that when someone says something unfounded that we can brush it off as the person not knowing what they are talking about. That is obviously not to be confused with constructive criticism of course, but when someone is downright mean, it's uncalled for. Not to mention that when it comes to art, it is very subjective. Just like music, some people like one thing and think that what I like sucks...well I just keep liking what I like right? I understand how hard it is to pick yourself up, especially when you have been doing it so many times. It takes a lot of determination and help. And Yes menopause is not helping me either! lol
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