Arrgghh! FML! It's always something!

Dammit!!!!! If it is not one thing, it's another. There is nothing like trying to get things together in your life and getting something else thrown in to make it worse. I'm already stressed out and now more bad news to stress me out further. This time it is my youngest son. He just got a notice, instead of a check, stating that his unemployment ran out. Congress hasn't approved an extension yet so he has to keep sending in his slips and not getting any check. I, for one, cannot afford this. I am already overdrawn in one account that I want to fix, but I can't at the moment. I am expecting money from both of my daughters. My oldest daughter has owed this money to me for a little while and was supposed to pay me with her bonus that she got a week ago. But of course something went wrong and the money went away, so I didn't get paid. My youngest daughter still owed me a little money from her last check, but it wasn't a lot so I wasn't worried. Now she borrowed money for gas (still not worried) but then she borrowed money for a rave that she has been wanting to go to on Friday, out of town. Now I agreed to lend her the money only because I know that she gets paid the day of the rave and can't get up to get her check as they have to leave early. She is pretty good about paying me back. But I look at what she owes me right now and it is starting to add up again. The issue is that she didn't work one of the days that she was supposed to work so that means her check will be less. It just worries me. I know she will pay me most of what she owes me, I just need all of it right now and I know she doesn't have it. Combine that with my son and my oldest daughter and I am in trouble here. 

  Add to that the fact that my bank sent my storage check back to the storage place where I am supposed to go tomorrow to clear out what I can out of one of them so that I can get rid of it since I really can't afford two anymore. The deal I had expired, which has almost doubled the price. Anyway, I am sure they are not going to let us in to the storage unit until I pay what I owe PLUS a late fee. All together it will be close to $200.00. I can't afford that AND my rent. Not sure what I'm going to do. I am selling what I can, it is hard not living in a house I can't have a yard sale so I am selling what I can on eBay. But that is not optimum sometimes, depending what you are selling. It is just stressing me out too much. I don't need this kind of stress. But there doesn't seem any way to avoid it. Now I can listen to my son being upset about his situation that he doesn't do enough to change in my opinion. We are probably going to end up fighting again because we are both stressing. Another thing I don't need. Arrrggghhhh!!!!!

  A funny thing happened the other day though. My oldest son talked to me about the possibility of me and my youngest daughter moving into he and his wife's house since he is probably losing a couple of his roommates. Of course he has to talk to his wife first. I am still undecided though. I like having my own place and although I wouldn't mind living with them, financially it would probably be a blessing. I just am not sure. Right now it is nice to live in my own place, I am comfortable for the most part. If I moved in there I'd have to put all of the rest of my stuff in storage, probably never to see it again. That is not something I would be too happy about. But at the same time, my son and I get along great, I love his wife too, and I would be a better roommate than his older sister is right now. But I need to do some thinking. My lease doesn't expire for awhile so I have a little time. But one thing I will say, I heard from my oldest daughter that apparently one of their neighbors bug bombed their house and the roaches from their house are now coming into my son's house. Ummm I HATE roaches with a passion!!!!!! I would go crazy!!!! So I won't even consider it unless they get that taken care of!!!!!

  I don't know about you but one of the worst things I hate about stressing like this is that I'm a stress eater. Right now I have gone through almost a half a box of EL Fudge cookies. This has GOT to stop!!!!! Yum, but dammit!!!!!!

   I also found out that some of the things I need to sell on eBay are apparently in storage, although I don't know how they got in there. They were supposed to be in my house so I am a little concerned and hoping that I find them tomorrow. God please help me get through this stress without eating my weight in cookies!!!! Maybe I need this book w/games and stuff! Something to get my mind off the stress! I didn't know they offered games for stress relief, I am only aware of the stress balls that I have at work. BLAH!!!!!